Quiet as It's Kept: Gay Men Speak

I'm bored...................working on my anti-twink gun. It's experimental

lol

mmm... can I work on that gun with you?

lol

Is it going to age them, or explode them?

my gun will age them.......a fate worse than death......LMAO

lets all get our cocks out and party

I'd really hate to laugh when you do

where are all of the hot little 'pool' boys just looking to wait on me hand and foot....lol

they're all here @ my house

I think there's a convention in twinkville this week

i'm thinking subway, that way i can get food and 12inches at the same time
all for 5 bucks

doesn't seem to be much going on

nope......pretty slow

DAMN! I hate this friggin rule book..........it says he can't say hi to us because we're over 40......damn book

love to see guys in their 40's in here LOL

I think I'm going to build a time machine just so that I can go back to the 90's

Heavens! Why?

i fucked my ex and he was with someone else i am a horrible person

that was your ex and your decision

no youre just gay

okay thats what i though

karma

karma on who?

the ex made the decision to break trust of the bf

yeah

but it is in the past and its over

and has any lesson been learned?

yeah it sis the past and i aint doin it on a daily basis or anything---it aint my fault my dick is good and he still wants it haha

ignore phone calls from work is the lesson I learned

I would let him go though because if he cheats on his bf with you then he could be cheating with others.

sounds like consenting adults

but who am I to say

i aint stressin it--what i do is what i do---think of me what you will cause i dont care---but one thing i do know is that in the past 5 years i have only been with one man and if thats a ho then i guess thats what i am

no that does not make you a ho

makes you a rare person



I wish the 20 something crowd did something for me, but I like my menz in their 30's

I guess the 40's are out of the question?

No why do you ask?

because i'm in my 40's and didn't want to be left out

I'm not leaving folks out

I don't want to be left out either

u said "30's" and i wasn't sure if it stopped there for you

just stating a prefererence

I know what it's like to be in my 30's but not 40's

I don't imagine it to be much different

but 20's and 30's has proven to be a WORLD of difference for me

it's not, except you're in your 40's

now I know why most 40 something guys are looking for guys 20 and 30... they have been 20 and 30...LOL

not exactly, if i may be so bold

sexually my 30's have been better than my 20's

be bold if you like but I find it to be ture.

I love how I make my man feel and how it bounces back to make me feel it too

i think what we know is what we experienced

Is my life going to change 1,000 times over in my 40's?

if your lucky

like the spins I had to endure in my 20's?

let's just hope you have a lover at that point,,,

no, except you'll be in your 40's....it's not a death sentence

who said anything about death?

are you talking TO me, or THRU me?

I'm not talking death,,,

what happens in your 40's is that you get your own age attracted to you, but oddly and unexpectedly, younger guys are interested. they pick you

I can attest to that

yeah true

not all younger guys i hasten to add!

It almost All i was interested in

he is in a dream land

now I'm getting attracted to guys in their 20s it's strange

I'll prolly hang myself on my 40th birthday

"when I think about you I hang myself"

For PD (and others): a New Poem

Yes, Manma, I know
you’re choking on all the things
you could not say
because you were a working-class girl--
pregnant at fifteen--
so you never mattered.

Yes, mamma, I know
It’s all because of me
And I tried to make it right
But, after all, I am your son.

I am your son, mamma.
I’m just a working-class boy.
I tell the truth
and the rest be damned.
I don’t know how to lie;
I don’t know how to play nice
because you could not teach me how.

We are who we are.

Yes, mamma,

I know….

Quiet as It's Kept: More Gay Speak

Friend: mmm hmm, and you love that boy fucking your ass good and hard too. I was at ______'s last night for an over night stay and a I fucked him again. lol.

Me: Overnight? Wow, it must be LUV.....lol

Friend: lol....I think last night was the 3rd overnight stay at his place in the last two weeks.

Me: It must be luv then....lolololol

Friend: lol. Well, I do luv spending time with him. lol And he's said the words but you know my heart belongs to my partner. Not that I don't care about him a lot.

Me: Yes, and there's his "b/f" who he said was taking him to Bermuda or the Camen Islands or some damn place....so romantic.....

Friend: lol...Yeah, there's that too. He's got quite a delimma with his BF and liking me so much. lol


Me: Yes, quite the dilema...
One monkey don't make no show...
An errection doesn't have a concience....
Men are dogs....we just can't help ourselves....

la, da, da, da, da, da

Friend: Yeah....we are bad, but it feels sooo good being so bad.


This is how every gay man I've ever known behaves because this behavior and this attitude is acceptable in our community. But as my friend said: "Well, there are certain things that go along with the marriage equality that are important to couples like us. Like if one of us is hospitalized, the other wouldn't have a legal right to see them, and then there's the bullshit when one of us passes the other has to pay taxes on half of the house when we've bought it together for years. So it has a lot to do with the benefits of marriage that count most."

We don't want marriage. We want the benefits of marriage and that's what we should be fighting for because that would be equality.



Still think gay men deserve marriage equality?

Guiet As It's Kept...Still think Gays Deserve Marriage Equality?

Another little dialogue with a friend of mine. Gay men are so sad...(Of courese they don't see it that way as long as we don't tell straight folks). But they are. Want proof? Here's a conversation with a friend whose been in a relationship for five years (that's like 100 years in gay time) Keep Reading:

Me: What are U doing up so late? 2 b/f's not enough?....lololol

Friend: Oh watching Chelsey Lately. And is there ever enough b/f's in the world? Lol. Been in the garage the last 3 days and nights working my ass off on our organizations system. Ugggg

Me: I dunno....I think of Freida Kahlo. When asked about Diego's infidelity she said, "Does a riverbank suffer for letting the river run?" But the truth is that Freida suffered greatly. I think of you sitting alone in a hotel room in Hawaii while your partner was off with someone else that he met in a bar. Not to judge....You know I love you...I just wonder...

Friend: But we are both very hoot darling so it works for us. You going out to Greg's tonight? Having some dinner with Trent at Ivys then headed to Greg's to meet___________and some other friends.


Me: And no...I'm not going to Greg's....U know I'm not the bar type....not "hoot" enough I guess.

To gays, being HOT is what counts.


Of course, we would never say this in front on straight folks. Straight folks wouldn't approve. And we soooo want straight folks to approve and to think that we are just like them.

Still think gays deserve marriage equality? Even those in Long Term Relationships are non-monogamous. Marriage is: "Forsaking all others 'til death do you part." If you don't have that, then you don't have a marriage. And, therefore, the idea that gays are not trying to redefine the definition of marriage (that redefinition is inherent in the mere fact of asking for same-sex marriage)is ridiculous.


More gay real speak to come....

Afterthought: A new Poem by P. D. Gourlais

I read this today and it gave me chills. I am so happy and so excited that my friend P.D. allowed me to share it here! The opening line stopped me cold....how many times have I felt this way?

But read on...

And thank you P.D.

Afterthought

Maybe we were happenstance.
Two nomadic souls
crossing a Great Divide.

At the edge
of the pier, moja kochanie,
your eyes searched my eyes
for a very long time

and without words,
your sign matched mine

and we kissed.

We passionately kissed at 3 a.m.
on the shore
at the Lake of Neuchâtel.

We made music with our romantic hums.
We held each other tight.

We held each other close and tight

against waves
of invisible color.
Fluid and flowing,
so much light escaped,
while swimming in
the irises of our soft,
Buddha eyes.

You led me home
on a late-night Tram
to where we talked
curled up in spoons.

I let the emotion of love
lift the fibers
of my heart, and like
a puppet,
I surrendered myself to you.

I surrendered myself to you
until you fell asleep

right there by my side.

I followed the cadence
of your even-keeled breath
until I sailed into
dreams about you.

What would I give now?
To be more than an afterthought.

We need to feel lucky somehow.

What would I give?
Moja kochanie,

We need to feel lucky somehow.

P.D. Gourlais

Quiet as it's Kept: Still Think Gay Men Deserve Equality?

A typical night in a gay chatroom with typical gay men
(don't talk to me about equality):

WHAT IS WITH FAGS THAT HAVE BEEN WITH OVER 500 MEN?

they are popular??

AND U WANNA TALK ABOUT MARRIAGE EQUALITY? ARE YOU SERIOUS?

i must of missed that

I wanna see the proof that's a spectacular claim

they are whores and cant help themselves

U BITCHES ACT LIKE ANIMALS.U DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE ANIMALS.....PERIOD



YOU ANIMALS ACT LIKE BITCHES AND YOU DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE BITCHES.... END OF STORY

i must of came in durrin a convo

thanks i am not the only one to see it lol


U WANT PROOF....HE JUST TOLD ME HE'S HAD SEX WITH OVER 500 MEN

yep, I used to be a big old slut

Fags annoy the fuck out of me

that's funny, cause you annoy the fuck out of fags


lying whores

what is goin on?

someone is mad someone else is getting laid


oh damn

fuck u

uh huh

thought so

oh my my my

he is always looking for cock ALWAYS!

please place your man rod into my snatch

yeah, but he hasn't gotten that many of them
just stalked them that's the difference

if he were more attractive he'd have been able to reach 500 men

at least i don't brag that I've beem with over 500 men.....but claim i'm not a whore


gotta love a whore with morals


well, he is old

is that like a whore high in fiber?

and of course it is impossible for people to change right, that was well over
5 years ago


it only breaks down to a guy like every 2 weeks


again....fuck u.... u shallow faggiot bitch

why don't you take your drunk ass to an AA meeting?

aww did you turn him down too?
not quite sure why he decided to go off on me tonight


again....fuck u.., u shallow worthless faggot whore

I need someone to cuddle with me while I fall asleep

are you guys getting married

that is called a joke... I just invented it

well i wanna be a brides maid ill still make that ugly dress look good


WORTHLESS....EVERY DAMN ONE OF U

we love you too

FUCKING WORTHLESS FAGGOTS

ooh... your anger is turning me on

speak for yourself

oh is he like serious

and your even hotter now that your 27... instead of 41

nah, just drunk

got ya

he dropped his age from 41 to 27, and still, no one will sleep with him, so he's a tad bitter, methinks

awww
thats sad

nothing is wrong with it

EQUALITY....MARRIAGE....U BITCHES ARE NOTHING BUT ANIMALS AND DESERVE NOTHING MORE....FUCK U


41 and ugly is differnt than 41 and hot!

I'm scared... please hold me

we all have an opinion and you are free as FUCK to state it



AGAIN FUCK U....

wow, he must really be loaded this time

hosting studs to suck off...

can we say alcohol poisioning?


?

im not a bitch or a whore

well, he doesn't actually get laid, he just stalks mexican boys



can't we all just drink and get along..

some make me laugh really hard

im bored


i need a drink

please don't


party at my house!

what am I gonna hold

PUKE

SHUT THE FUCK UP MR. "I'VE BEEN WITH OVER 500 MEN"


uhh yeah

ummm yeah


do you know this guy or somthing

does he have these outburst often

yup, pretty much

'cause i have some really good pills that help that

Jesus mary and Joseph

I'm just going by what he told me...he told me he had over 500 men.... typical fag

anyone looking?

see?
y'all fuck anything that moves...lol


Still think gay men deserve EQUALITY? Don't talk to me about equality until gay men change their own behavior and their own attitudes.

En Vino Veritas: Poems for P.D.

"I'll stand before your altar
and tell everything I know...."
-Joan Baez, "Play Me Backwards"

"en vino veritas.." as they say. 5 new pantoums for P.D. So melodramatic and a bit pathetic (I should be ashamed but I'm not). Hope you like.

“God doesn't make trash,” you said
Except for me
Discarded, cast aside
So you could be famous in the blogosphere

Except for me
Who loved you
So you could be famous in the blogosphere
Quoted in the New York Times.

Who loved you
Beyond all reason
Quoted in the New York Times
You said to me, “Why tell the truth when you can lie?”

Beyond all reason
Discarded, cast aside
You said to me, “Why tell the truth when you can lie?”
“God doesn’t make trash,” you said.



You were something without me
I was nothing without you
Screaming into the void
I was just a ghost thru the fog

I was nothing without you
Your love meant life to me
I was just a ghost thru the fog
Until you rescued me

Your love meant life to me
But now you’re gone
Until you rescued me
I was nothing

But now you’re gone
Screaming into the void
I was nothing
You were something without me.

And one that's a bit of a throw away....not really "written" by me. Found, borrowed, re-interpreted. Anyway, it's second hand news:

Where is the reason
Don’t blame it on me
Don’t blame me
Blame it on my wild heart

Don’t blame it on me
You say that you’re leaving
Blame it on my wild heart
There is a reason even the angels don’t give up at all

You say that you’re leaving
You don’t even know how to start
There is a reason even the angels don’t give up at all
A charmed hour and a haunted song.

You don’t even know how to start
Don’t blame me
A charmed hour and a haunted song
Where is the reason?



I suffer my darling P.D.

Do you know what it is to be gifted, talented, brilliant (so I'm told....I don't mean to brag) and have it mean nothing while lesser talents and frauds are lauded?

I wish I could be like other people and not give a damn.....tell people what they want to hear ("Why tell the truth when you can lie", my ex used to say) but I have a soul I can't deny and won't sell just to get by. I feel deeply and sincerely and can't live otherwise.

I can't pretend to be anybody but me.

As Muriel Rukeyser said (almost): "What would happen if one woman (or anyone for that matter) told the truth about her life?
The world would split open."

There is nothing here
This is just life
This is just Earth
And this world is not my home

This is just life
And we must endure
And this world is not my home
A river and a rock would solve the problem

And we must endure
We must go on, I guess
A river and a rock would solve the problem
Is that the answer?

We must go on I guess, I guess
This is just Earth
Is that the answer?
There is nothing here.

And finally this:

Love is
Pain and possibility
Lovely alliteration
Piss poor philosophy

Pain and possibility
What a joke
Piss poor philosophy
How’s that?

What a joke
You know the one about….
How’s that?
Funny, isn’t it?

You know the one about…?
Lovely alliteration
Funny, isn’t it?
Love is.